I am ashamed
I am feeling quite ashamed of myself and I feel bad about something I did not do.
On most days, when I take the train or the bus, I always make sure I am the first to give up my seat to someone who needs its more than I do or in extreme situations, I will ask a teenager to give his seat up. Usually its a courtesy act, I pay no attention to it and it makes me feel good inside.
BUT
Today, I was talking on the phone while walking down the steps of the train station. I had one hand on my bag, the other hand on my phone. I saw a blind man, i know he has intentions of walking down the steps but he was hesistant. I paused for a moment and decided between my friend on the phone and helping him. Just as I was thinking, a young man came along and helped him down the steps.
After watching the young man, I felt really bad because I really should not have to think about helping a blind man down the stairs . I really should have hung up immediately. I felt sick in the stomach and disappointed at myself. What was I thinking ? And because of it, I am so ashamed.
I hate this sick in the stomach feeling. SIGH !
On most days, when I take the train or the bus, I always make sure I am the first to give up my seat to someone who needs its more than I do or in extreme situations, I will ask a teenager to give his seat up. Usually its a courtesy act, I pay no attention to it and it makes me feel good inside.
BUT
Today, I was talking on the phone while walking down the steps of the train station. I had one hand on my bag, the other hand on my phone. I saw a blind man, i know he has intentions of walking down the steps but he was hesistant. I paused for a moment and decided between my friend on the phone and helping him. Just as I was thinking, a young man came along and helped him down the steps.
After watching the young man, I felt really bad because I really should not have to think about helping a blind man down the stairs . I really should have hung up immediately. I felt sick in the stomach and disappointed at myself. What was I thinking ? And because of it, I am so ashamed.
I hate this sick in the stomach feeling. SIGH !
posted by Celine at
7:24 PM
1 Comments:
Hey, i can understand how u feel.. but dun be so hard up about it..
in that split second, the young guy just happened to be quicker to step in to help..
of cos, u're questioning the fact that u even hesitated. c'mon, u're not a automaton.. u don't have spider-sense.. and u're certainly not in the Matrix. so don't be so upset that u didn't react as quickly as u thought u ideally should've.
chin up =)
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