I know I am different, I also know I am happy

I know I am different.

I know a lot of people hope that I can think in a manner that is similar to them. Think in a frequency that is more 'normal' ( define normal anyways.... ). They all hope that they can better understand what I am thinking sometimes and sometimes I make the effort to communicate my crazy ideas to them but I don't, not because I cannot, but i dont see the point of explaining sometimes. I dont bother explaining to the people who calls me crazy... my love for Apple products, nor why I listen to both techno and classical music and no one in the house seems to be musically incline. Or why I studied Geography at university even though everyone thinks that its a useless degree and I dont make sense anyways. I also know that I enjoyed university tremdously because I was in love with what I was studying.

I know a lot of people wish that I can be a little more sensitive to the needs of others. I know I am straight-forward and I say what my opinions are but I also know not many people in the world have the guts, and being straight-forward sometimes, not sugar coating words will bring your message across and constructive critism is what really toughens poeple up. I know I offend a few people this way but if they cannot take it, I guess its no use talking to them anyways.

I know a lot of people feel that I am not a bad person but because of the way I perceive things and the way I go all out to get what I want may appear to be ruthless or a b*tch but I get to the goals I have set for myself. Some people see me as fickle-minded, unable to focus because I job-hopped a little but if I have not done so, I would not have known what I really want as a career and would have hated going to work everyday. I hate to hate going to work so I left my job anyways and found something that I can stay in for the long haul. Sure, it took a long year to find it but I feel its worth it.

And because I dont really care about what other people say, I appear not to be selfish and in a traditional chinese family, I become the brat of the house, the crazy one, the disobedient one. In all honestly, I dont care because I am going to be the one living my life and I am not going to regret my decisions when I reach the end of my career path. And because I appear to be nonchalent about too many things, I become the insentive one, i guess in doing so, i spared myself from the heartaches and all the sleepless nights. From the way I see it, sometimes, you just cannot help the situation so, might as well refrain from it.

And I don't do the normal girl stuff, I like speed, the sound of engines, the smell of the sea and its ok not to conform to what society defines you as. And I dont see the need to whine, behave all girly girl so that the boys will pay more attention to you. I dont see why I have to 'play stupid' because guys won't fall for smart / successful women. I dont see why I cannot challenge guys, i might not always turn out right but at least I put up a good fight. I know I am wrong but I pretend to be right anyways because miracles happen and I am not doing anything morally or ethically wrong. ( grinz )

And my closest friends are the ones who know I am different and love me for the crazy things I stand for. They accept that I am crazy and they love me anwyays, because they know that at the end of the day, if they need help, i will be there in a minute and no matter how grave the situtation gets, tell them that there is always a way out, to help them pick themselves up, not give a shit to what other people thinks of them ( coz I dont care anyways ) and later step away from it like it has not happened.

I know I am different and it can be seen as being difficult but I am not going to change, I aim to stand out from the crowd, I stand by my opinions ( no matter what you think of them ), I aim to take the world by storm with my passion and my beliefs with a few partner-in-crimes and I aim to be me, just me.

I know I am different, I am proud to be different. I also know that I am happier living my dreams.

Here's to the crazy ones.
The misfits, The rebels. The Trouble-makers.
The round heads in the square holes.
The ones who see things differently.
They're not fond of rules,
and they have no respect for the status-quo.

You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is to ignore the,
Because they change things.
They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius.
Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.
--- Jack Kerouac