It has happened already.... ( a rant and rave )

I woke up this morning feeling pretty ok. The first thing I would do is to turn on my computer and read my emails before I get anything else done.

I turned it on. Left for the bathroom, and came back to find an old friend from AIESEC Victoria replying to an email i sent it a long long long long long time ago.
The good thing is, he replied. The bad thing is, I dont know how long will he take to reply 'my reply'

Afterwhich, I decided to go blog surfing and found a friend's site, from there, I found another site, and another from there. It was all good until I scrolled down to read the history and saw some pictures that and realised that it has happened already. I am always worried about how me moving away to another country will affect my friendship with some people and how I would lose contact with some of my friends.

I love my friends and becasue I have different cliques of friends, I hang out with them seperatedly, this bunch of guys I hung out with since I was about 14. And we have always been good friends, close and should time permit, we will have suppers together. Recently, I have been caught up with work. Each of them have also been caught up with their gf and another with God knows what! Two left the country.
I haven't seen them in a while; let alone say know what is going on in their lives.

( ok, the ranting starts here )
so.. for friends that dont know what happened in each other's lives, they are not called friends ya ? and friends who dont bother to call each other out for suppers anymore, or are so busy with god knows what that he has no time for his old friends, ( maybe new friends are cooler ), they shouldn't be calling each other 'friends' too ! am i right ? Or am i right to say that when there are no exciting stories in life, we dont really call our friends, coz there are no gossips ? OOO... maybe the fact that the whole group is not in town, ahh.. that is a good reason not to meet up ? or maybe the 'FRIENDS' bullshit comes into play here... that is .
- as our friend, you should understand that... blah blah blah...
- you know we still care, we just dont say it. blah blah blah...
- we are all busy with our own stuff and life. blah blah blah...
- this one takes it as winner : we thought you will understand since you are always the caring one ... ( ah... this one is the craziest, playing verbal akido ! )

I guess I am not feeling particularly upset ( but it doesn't feel good ) that the group is now more split up than it use to be, ( maybe its between me and the rest ! ) maybe i'm too caught up in work, maybe I have no new exciting gossips in my life thus losing my friends of more than 10 years ! ) I dunno.. knowing that they met up and I was not around, just makes it look like I am out of the loop, I hate this feeling coz I really do care about them.

Good thing for me, I have other friends that care no matter where they are, the worst part is : they are at least 8 hours away by flight and they still care, call regularly )

So I guess, it has happened already. I am not angry, just disappointed.
( so what did i tell you about having new friends in the group ? Once again, I was right but i respect your choices, now respect mine )